Sunday, October 12, 2008

Annoyed

OMG! I've used up my download limit for the month!!!!!! Holy crap! How am I gonna survive with 28.8k internet speed for another 20 days???? Didn't even think I've downloaded that much, watched lots of youtube movies and maybe downloaded some of *ahem* ..those..movies but seriously, not that many......

Anyways, about last night's dinner/party, it was pretty good generally, although it was dragged on for a bit long because food wasn't served until about 1-2 hours after arrival, the hostess kept apologizing, although no one was upset over it, as we all had snacks during the activities in the afternoon. However there was a guy whom I met before, kinda made me a little uncomfortable. He's young and very good looking and smart, but I feel that he lacks certain aspects of personality.

Firstly the second course of the dinner was soup, because it was an asian restaurant, so it was your typical asian style thick gooey soup. Lots of people were adding soy sauce to taste, although I thought the soup was salty enough, then I heard him talking to the guy next to him about adding soy sauce to the soup to add flavour etc, suddenly he giggled and said "it's asian's blood". I was a little taken back by that, as I didn't find that "joke" particularly funny. Although food forms an important aspect of a culture and they can be defined by some typical ingredients they use, I just didn't feel the positive vibe in that comment. Maybe I was overreacting?

Half way through the meal, a store was mentioned and I had no idea where that was, so I asked the question, someone told me it's in a certain complex next to a well known designer boutique, I then said I kind of knew where it is now. Then he (or someone else) commented that immediately after that brand is mentioned, I knew where it was, which I thought "shit, that's a pretty obvious flameboyant gay thing to say" as I'm not out for a number of reasons, so I quickly mentioned that I knew because my friend works there (well, sort of, they offered him a casual/temp position and he didn't take it). Apparently I got worried for all the wrong reasons, as that guy started to ask me if I have any connection to that brand, ie owning shares or sell the product etc, which I found funny because I don't have anything from that brand apart from two fragrances and both of them not really my kind of style. Again, he let out another obnoxious (at least to me it was) comment "woops, sorry, I mean does your family supply them? Does your family make them in China?" I was almost ready to shower his face with soy sauce and leave, but I was nice enough to just dismiss his comment with a smirk and a "yeh rite" (which I wished I could do a bit better than that) because I didn't want to get pissed off in front of all the guest that I met for the first time and ruin the party for the hosts.

Needless to say, although the rest of the night was ok, but I just couldn't help to resent him for the whole time. He could be just too young (~20?) and didn't have any bad intention in his comments and not yet learnt about thinking before making any potentially offensive comments, or he was simply obnoxious?? Personally, as an immigrant living in a country with relatively short history of acceptance of immigrants and multiculturalism, I don't like to use the word "racism" easily, because sometimes it was simply not understanding someone else's culture. I feel like the things I've heard was a little intimidating in a racism way, as he just linked some offensive comments simply to where I was from.

Normally I just bitch and moan here as a means to express myself, but this time, I'm begging to hear what you have to say about this post. I want my readers to help me to analyse this situation, was I overly sensitive to those comments or I really should be pissed off by his comments? Your contribution is appreciated!

3 comments:

Jackdaw said...

I know several grown-up people who make insulting comments like that. I feel that it is never malice, and always merely stupidity. It they would mean it in a nasty way, they would dare say it to your face.

The soup joke is just bad taste, nothing more nothing less. The comment about your family "making fragrances in China": if he realised how that that sounded, he wouldn't have dared make that comment.

I think it's not racism. He obviously makes that comment because you are Asian, but it was not in order to insult you. He was obviously uncomfortable and joked because he was nervous or something. His bad jokes only showed that his worldview needs to be updated a quite bit.

Real racists would ignore you and talk about you behind your back.

I have been an openly gay teacher for five years, and heard many bad jokes on gay stereotypes, but all of them came from students who were very nice and supportive... and who a lot of respect for the fact that I didn't hide my sexuality.

Oh, and of course you were annoyed!

J-code said...

Thanks JD, I think I kind of agree with you that he was probably just young and have not learnt about tactics in jokes.Although he was a little brat-like lols

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