Sunny gloomy Sunday

I went out with friends yesterday, had lots of fun and a great time, it was good to have something to distract myself from what had happened during the week. Although I felt like I didn't want to go home at 12 am, still wanted to hang out and just chill out to get my mind off my shitty week, unfortunately others do need to go home, so I went home at 1.

Although it was raining in the night and weather report told us we will have a rainy Sunday, today's weather was really good. Plenty of sun shine and warm, I can't wait until summer! However, thinking about going back to work tomorrow just turns my mood around completely, the doomed feeling returns and I feel like to just bang my head against the inferior non-sturdy wall of our office. I've thought about it from a different perspective though, things are not THAT bad, the issues can be resolved, and it's not like I have a sex tape leaked or anything (although again I'd feel sorry for the audience), plus I'm not even afraid to lose my job, if I'm given too much crap, I will tell them to find someone better, it might be doing me a favour!

Speaking of changing job, after the recent weeks and the ongoing build up of dissatisfaction from my current work situation, I am looking for alternatives to my current job. At this stage, the very appealing option is the working holiday in UK, it offers a complete change of environment, and with Europe at my door step, at least I can travel around Europe and see all the awesome countries. However this will mean that at least for one year, I will not be able to get a job with similar roles and responsibilities because for the working holiday visa, I will be only allowed to work half of the time I stay there. Even if I can get employed in similar role, I can only work for half of the time. I'm a little worried now once I return to Melbourne, my experiences built up in my current job will not be 'current' enough to give me advantages in job hunting. Although I have not tried to get new job, there are many potential positions that sounded attractive with higher salary package too, which at least I believe my experience will look very good on my resume. But I have convinced myself, things HAVE to change, I will need to make some decisions in the coming year and sort out my future.

Here's a song by Xtina that sorta suits the mood: